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Random things I remember

I miss hotpockets sometimes, when eaten at the perfect time they really hit the spot, but then I remember I don't like pizza flavored glaciers coated in bread flavored lava.

Anyone remember Smitelli Radio? It was a web radio station you could listen to on Winamp. The guy had a website that you could queue song requests on. My friend and I used to listen to it a lot and we'd message eachother late at night to check if we requested the song currently being played. I wonder what that Smitelli guy is up to now?

I loved playing Ragnarok Online when it came out. I was about 15 years old when it came out? I played the crap outta that game! I was excited to see it on Steam. Kinda upset that Easy Anti-Cheat is being used with it now, mostly because it crashes on my main PC. I managed to get it running on my laptop however! Been playing on the Chaos server, still surprized to see thousands of players still grinding away at it.

Things that piss me off

So, it really bothers me that things don't taste like they smell sometimes. I bought a coffee blend that smells like blueberry pancakes, I mean the smell is absolutely amazing! But as soon as my hopes are raised, they are instantly dashed away when it comes to the first sip. Now that I think of it, blueberry pancakes don't even taste like they smell (but it's closer). I think the success rate of smell to taste is better for sweeter things(?), but that being said, pumpkin spice will never taste as advertised by scent, no matter how much sugar and cream you dump in to it. Same with synthetic banana flavoring, I'm not sure our brains will ever figure that one out. If my blueberry coffee actually tastes as good as it smells one day, I'm sure the experience will be too much for my brain to handle and I'll shutdown.

Social media today has ruined what the internet used to be. Talk about a technology that had the ability to be good but couldn't because the companies that devise these platforms are not focused on your health and well-being but the income they derive from your activity. Thats all you are to these companies, a dollar sign. They use social media against you by employing social tactics to get you hooked in to certain behaviors to keep you there so they get paid, one example being phone notifications. Once you get dug in to social media, the algorithm takes over. This algorithm is responsible for suggesting content that appeals to your interests. Problem is, this algorithm has a nasty habit of suggesting content that is also adjacent to your interests, information that rides the edge of your interest bubble. The goal of this of course is to get you to explore "new exciting" content without leaving your comfort zone too fast. Those who are aware of how this algorithm works, can tailor it against you. This algorithm is responsible for turning nice, respectable, good people in to hateful, racist, self-centered fools. The providers of these platforms pretend to care, but make the bare minimum changes to appease people without stopping the gravy train. A true social media site shouldn't require an algorithm to assist you in finding things you enjoy, nor should it be used to keep you locked in to your tiny little echo chamber of friends and special interest groups. The internet of olde required you to explore it to find the content you wanted, making you look for things instead of just spoon feeding it to you. Along the way on your informational adventure in ye olde internet you may have come across a few websites that may have taught you something new, or scared you so you clicked away fast, or were so bizzare or awesome they got your attention legitimately. Needless to say, back in ye olde internet, you were in control. Not today. Keep on liking those posts and playing those terrible social media games while you talk to the same likeminded people in the same echochamber, I'm sure you're changing the world. The providers love a fat wallet, so stay locked in your box.

It irritates and stresses me out when someone hears about a skill I have and they automatically assume I'm going to just offer it to them as a service, or when I helped someone with something and then they volunteer me to others they know. I don't mind helping you, but I have have to be in the right state of mind. It doesn't hurt to ask, and I mean ACTUALLY ask, not "Hey you're good with *skill*, when can you help me do *surprise project*?"

I'm tired of people trying to convince me that I can or should do something I don't want to do with my life, only then to get upset or become dissapointed when I don't do it. You have no right to be upset at me for disregarding your suggestion or "life advice". That's not what's gonna make me happy and will only confuse or frustrate me. Too many times have I done something others had wanted me to do only later to find out I can't get anywhere with it, or it causes me too much stress or trouble to want to continue to deal with it. Then when it fails, they respond with stupid excuses like "Maybe you just did it wrong" or "Well it worked out for me!"... Just stop.

Have you ever noticed when you go out to eat, after you've been served your drinks and your order has been taken, you are left alone until your food is ready. Then when your meal arrives and you are just getting ready to eat, the server comes by and asks you how your meal is. I don't know, I literally just took one bite! I haven't had enough time to determine the quality of my meal yet. Then they come by when you have a mouth full of food, or in mid conversation with someone and ask if you need anything. Then later, when you do need something, they're nowhere to be found. Surely I'm not the only one who feels this way.

Things that I find facinating

I find it fascinating that the invention of Tri-Ethyl Lead caused the IQ of Earth's population to collectively drop, killed and disabled millions of people, as well as developing long term mental and physiological health problems generations ahead that we are now only finally starting to get a grasp on. One chemical they absolutely knew was harmful but decided to use anyway because it saved a buck ended up costing us generations of expenses in crime prevention, mental healthcare, and education.

Things that are funny to me